More tests...

 Oy Vey.

I went back to Mayo Wed. My ultra sound came out ok, but they are still concerned that I might have endometriosis. I personally don't think I do because I don't hurt on both sides all the time and I would have thought they would have seen something on the scans or when they went in to take tissue. But what do I know? Not that they know much more. Still no diagnosis. At least they are continuing to look.

Latest:
I have to get a colonoscopy and get checked of course for the endometriosis, however they check for that. I  am sure based on those results I will have other tests. And the joint doctor is still there in Oct. So maybe by Christmas I'll know something?

The colonoscopy, while a procedure done all the time is freaking me out a little bit. I know the prep is horrible and the test, while embarrassing, will at least be done in Winona so I won't have to travel to Rochester on the prep. Plus, I hear they put you out. And the Mayo doctor seemed to think the guy who does it down here is good so that is encouraging. That however, doesn't really freak me out. What freaks me out is the fact that my mom had colon cancer and none of the usual signs or symptoms a person  has show up showed up. It took a very skilled doctor who actually decided to listen to her and evaluate her symptoms to come up with the diagnosis as a possibility and get it checked out with surgery right away. And behold, cancer. She is ok, thank god, but the fact that nothing showed up is what freaks me out. Nothing shows up on my tests to indicate cancer, but what if? I know, I can't live with what ifs and I have to take each day by itself. I could have it a lot worse I keep telling myself. And I could.

On the Arizona front. Well obviously I have to get through this medical stuff before I can do anything, which I hate, because I just want to get the heck out of here. I have not heard back from my friend there yet, and all I said was could I talk to you about something. So who knows. He works in the medical field and I know is work life is crazy, but still call me back already! Plus, job wise, there doesn't seem to be much down there. Of course, there isn't much anywhere. So I will keep looking. I need to try to devote more time to it though - tweaking my resume, looking, applying, etc. That's my fault. It's just exhausting working, being in pain, driving to and from Rochester and dealing with Family. Excuses, I know, but true. Still, I'm not giving up like I have in the past.

                                                                                                                     ----- S