New Blog/Random Thoughts

I started my medical mystery blog, thanks E. It's http://medicalmysteryme.blogspot.com . So I'll try to keep people updated that way.

Ok, what's new? I haven't been on for awhile. Just tweaked my resume some. There is an open position in the HR department at work. Even though I don't really want it, I am applying. It would have benefits and it shows I am not willing to be their floater for ever. Although if I do get it, I would have to leave my current insurance, which, with everything going on would suck! Also, I just want to leave. But at least the resume is done, which means I can send it to people to look over and to jobs. What is my plan? I don't know. ARG

So anyway, I still have to talk to my friend in Arizona about things. I haven't talk to him in forever, but can't seem to make myself call. I get nervous and butterflies and secretly dread he will not let me stay with him. Also, he truly is always busy. I've seen it first hand, and it's not an excuse like some guys give. Yet, I get sort of annoyed that he's always talking to me when he's doing something else. It's so not in his nature to sit still, but I want him to when talking to me. I know. Selfish. But is it too much to ask to focus on one thing once in awhile? So anyway, still haven't called.... The thing is I am still totally in like, like with him even though he apparently has no interest in me. Well, right now in anyone. He's too busy. So do I want to move there because it will be closer to him? Yes. Will I hate summers? Yes. Will anything happen? Probably not. But it still sort of feels like that's where I am supposed to be. That or Colorado.

Colorado? Random, I know. The thing is I keep having dreams about going to visit Colorado. More specifically, this guy I was once friends with in Colorado. I was good friend with him until high school, when of course the groups split a little more harshly. I was not in his. Yet, he was always very nice to me and though I can' find it, wrote something very nice in my Junior/Senior yearbook about me always be a good friend. But of course he is not on facebook and I haven't talked to him since high school. Awkward! Actually thought about him/dreams have been happening since last December when I was in my hazy medical induced haze, so I thought maybe I would just send a Christmas card. So I asked his brother who gave me his address. Somehow, oh probably because of said medical induced haze, I never sent him a card. But I still have the odd dreams. It's not romantic or anything, I just clearly know I am in Colorado. So do I still send him a note to say hi? And if so, what do I say without seeming like a crazy?


Go to Mayo again tomorrow. I'm sure I'll be told they don't know what is wrong with me, again. But well, one new chapter for my blog.

Ok, I will try to do more soon. And I mean it this time.